No flowers with out rain

“Smooth seas never make a good sailor”

I’ve felt a lot, a lot of lows and a lot of highs. My horoscope and palm reads have indicated that my life has no middle ground. My life moves from one extreme to the other. That’s how my life has been, with any situation, with people, family and within myself. My emotions and thought process flys on and off the radar.

Today, I felt balanced. I don’t know what come over me but I left the place where I had spent the day and realised nothing crossed my mind. It was just me, my partner and I, sitting, chatting and laughing. Family visits and warm glows within us. How happy we are and noticing the love we have and the love our family has for us.

Im just so lucky. I’m just so lucky, and at times I feel out of luck. But I am not, you always want what you can’t get, you always compare, taken each day at a time is hard but you can get there. Calculating my day and my thought process and putting a positive spin on everything.

I’ve noticed my negative thoughts have turned positive and realising I blow things way up.

I’m getting good and I’m feeling good. I’m helping myself to become more balanced despite my fate line, but I couldn’t of done it without the support my loved ones give me, everyday.

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How mindfulness gave more essence to my life.

Let’s start from the beginning of my personal journey. 

A levels, that’s where my love of buddhism developed. I learnt the life and the teachings of the Buddha and I became hooked on what I considered the perfect philosophy. I always wondered how to bring buddhism into my life, but you get caught up in things and become busy, you forget and move on. 

My first year of university was a huge stress ride and I became very upset and felt very lonely a lot of the time. I lost a lot of meaningless friendships. Which made me feel empty, realising I was completely at a loss with people that didnt have much of grip anyway.

I felt completely lost and helpless. With perseverance, (and a lack of options anyways,) I stuck out the year and waited for the 2nd year to kick things up. They did and my soul friends, partner and family can see how well I am doing and how enthusiastic I am about things now. 

Through the tough journey the people that cared and gave me love and support made me feel whole again. They gave me essence to my life. 

My personality is a firey nature. Which can be good but quite self destructive. My family on both sides have terrible tempers and bipolar tendancies. My nan unfortunately passed away with cancer at such a young age during my A levels. We all knew how much of a stressed person she could be. Perhaps that was one of the things that killed her. 

Buddhism has fluttered my mind through these time gaps since finishing school. To do it or not to do? How and what do I need to do to become part of it? Fleeting thoughts that occurred. 

As of recently, with wider knowledge to my desired perspective, I am in fact following the practise. To help give my self understanding and perspective on how to live my life as balanced and as mindful as possible. 

Life is chaos and to have your life achieving balance is a perfect outlook to have. Since following the practise I have been so much more calmer, wanting to achieve a better health. (As I have health issues when put into a stressful environment.) To have a better mind and respective nature. 

I feel more positive things are circuling around me with the more positive outcomes I put into my life. Times can be hard but now I have a path to follow I will be able to gain more perspective about things. 

My mother bought a happiness book by the wonderful and so relatable lady, Miss Cotton. It’s great and her little captions help set out a plan for me to talk about certain topics for each day. 

“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” – The Buddha

My 2017 timeline

Well it was a tough start to the year in terms of dreams and goals. Me and my partner struggled to settled down in our roles of university and apprenticeship. 

We hated where we were and couldn’t see a positive end. Both worrying and teary nights, motivating ourselves to keep going and hoping things got better. 

They did! Things got better as they do, I found my interests and my ideal goals for where I want to be and for when I get out of university. My partner settled into the work place and is flying through his job! 

We had our first holiday together in Spain and this is where I become serious about fashion blogging and found workplacement with a number one global online magazine, as a style blogger. 

I discovered my strengths from journalism and what I enjoyed, thus being editing and wanting to go into video production. I found out that my goal was to progress into creative director in both documentaries (on the environment) and in fashion magazines. 

I lost a lot of friends through out the year. Randomly not speaking not seeing eachother for months, distancing because life moves on or the simple fact that people are rude. That’s fine because you realise your so much better off. 

I got upset and chased after people but realising who was there all along, made me feel like a brand new person. 

The people who have always been there and always supported me through all my achievements have been my loved ones! 

I am so greatful for a happy and healthy family and that this year we were all safe. That’s all I wish for in the new year. 

My resolutions are

To be more calm 

To loose a stone and to fit into a definite size 8.  

To find great work experience and to pass with a good grade in my second year. 

To pronounce my T’ s properly for broadcast. This seriously going to be the hardest one!!!

Here are my favourite moments

Work I produced this year

My holidays with my amazing partner!

Coldplay concert!

My best gals

MY 20TH!

Lost some work pals this year but gained a bunch load which is great because it started to get lonely when people started to leave.

I’m ending the new year on a high note and I am feeling very content. I’m happy and lucky and healthy that’s all a girl can ask for and the same for my loved ones❤ Roll on 2018 and bring on Thailand with my man❤ AHHH elephants❤ 

HAPPY NEW YEAR💋

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Power in style 

I don’t know if it’s because I have been binge watching That 70’s show or my hobby of scrolling through Instagram, subconsciously finding styles from the 70’s, but I became aware of my interest after unknowingly piecing this outfit together and figuring out that, yes, perhaps I have become a little obsessed with the 70’s inspired look. Also, the Fashion blogger, Lucy Williams’s wardrobe definitely plays a part in my copy cat style. 
My sweet partner bought me this very cute Power T. I love the yellow print and bold typography. It makes for a plain white T and to which is very colloquial to the 70’s.

My love for the fur coat is real and it has been a long time coming. Where have they been? It’s been a while for its come back and so I guess it’s bye-bye to my last year’s trench coat and hello to my furry friend. Let’s be clear this is fake fur! This coat goes well with high end styles (obviously because its known for being luxurious) and the relaxed look. Heck, chuck on a pair of Adidas originals and call me a pro.

Last but for sure not least, my burgundy patent stretch sock boots. They go with just about everything and I love them hidden underneath a good pair of three quarter length mom jeans. I’m on the hunt for a more flared three quarter length trousers. Preferably black and not mom jeans so if you have any suggestions please feel free to comment. 

The accessories I would wear would be cat sunglasses for a cold sunny day. To keep that chic look. Perhaps a nice vintage ring. Keep it simple, the outfit is already a statement.

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To shop my look: 

Coat – boohoo– out of stock (they do very affordable faux fur coats) 

Power top – Nastygal 

Mom jeans – Nastygal 

Patent boots – Misspap 

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Lucky for you they are all in sale!

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My inspiration for the “relaxed” look and knowing the difference in the sloppy look. 

You know what I mean when I tell you, those girls that have wavy unbrushed hair and pull their hair back with silky tie up scarfs. (Which reminds me of something delecate and child like.) They just look so cool and intricate, especially with a plain top and jeans. But it’s how you do it! 

Anyone can wear plain tops and jeans, but you can also look so boring and so plain. You got to bring the whole look together effortlessly with a few bits that I consider to be the “accomplished lucy williams look” 

fashion blogger of who is my absolute fave and inspiration! 

Coloured pink jeans. 

Plain white top.

Brown sandals. 

Small hoop earings. 

Scarf hair tie up.

Small elegant bag. 

Simple right? Looks so easy on paper. But blue jeans and a white shirt ain’t so James Dean when you don’t have accessories to pull off a mean ass look like lucy. 

Look relaxed. Not sloppy! 

Here is how I achieved my look :