Next years words awaits a fresh new voice

2019 was all about planning, putting my ducks in order and certainly adjusting to some exciting and nerve racking changes.

I have gone on numerous adventures and have come away with some unforgettable memories. Really heavy bumps and incredible highs. Loving and loosing, failing and accomplishing in regards to education and career. It’s been crazy and I’ve grown along the way!

2020 is a time where I settle into my new changes, absorb every bit of learning and adapt in order to do so, being present is part of my resolution. Taking each day at a time, really focusing on the day in front of me and so far… I’m on track.

Toning and loosing a few pounds! Sticking to my no carb for lunch diet and no sugar all week except weekends. It was one hell of a struggle to balance these things in my life since being full time. But I found my balance and mojo and can’t wait to kick it!

Lastly, I would like to focus on a hobby. I have always done gym and cheer but since I am training others in one and being trained in both I would like to focus on something all by myself and conquer! I’ve seen some amazing stretches from the girls in cheer, some fantastic core strength and flexibility in some people who partake in yoga! The positions look so cool and and talented, I would love to achieve that high level of focus, flexibility and all round toning!

Just thoughtful view points/ reca for the upcoming future:

Professionally 2020:

I am so excited to see what 2020 brings, various marketing projects where I can highlight my skills, to which have already been recognised with high praise! I am always learning and growing as a person so to know that 2020 is looking up to be a huge lesson learner is so exciting! I would love more responsibility and I am getting a taster of it as we peak into the new year and it’s just such a wonderful feeling knowing your progressing and succeeding and what you love doing.

Emotionally in 2020:

Being present is so key. We often get so excited about the future and that’s natural! But the facts are, whatever you wish for and hope to achieve will come if you work hard enough and then once it’s there you look back and what you could have payed more attention too! You keep wishing for things to happen you by pass all the other things you wished for in the past that are currently happening. Also being present helps you retain information better and have a a clearer mind space and that’s a huge plus!

My vegan movement

I understand it’s social justice to the vulnerable animals however I am not jumping on this one fully because I’d be a hypocrite in saying that I hate to eat animals because I am a meat eater! Not a big one but I’m very sorry to anyone who is vegan I will not be completely swayed because my mind and soul is just not equipped for a plant based life.

I do however enjoy this new vegan experience VERY VERY much. The transition has been so easy, well not completely as I said I can’t go full monty but finding, researching, eating has been so simple? Not as complex as I thought it would be. Let me show you some of the items I’ve bought. They are stunning and taste just as good and of course they are amazing detox items 😱

These are just a few of what I’ve been buying. Of course falafel with hummus and avocado which is stunning on a burger with sweet potato fries! Vegan cheese is incredible too!

I couldn’t recommenced these items enough they really give you the bug to switch your daily items. There is a vegan shop next to my new works … always feels lush saying that… and I can’t wait to replace my breakfast and dinner with some vegan options. I will keep you posted on my “body is a temple” post and see how far I’ve got and how well I’ve been coping.

Dare I say it now but I think it’s gunna be a piece of vegan cake.

Missing Missy

August was the worst month in such a very very long time. So many lows and the last hit of them all was putting my gorgeous P to sleep. Kidney failure.

It’s crazy how animals can let you know but also show no signs, we noticed she was drinking more but she’s older too and the confusing combination of general old age to sickness signs is difficult for any pet owner to pin point.

I have to say she went at a time that was right for all of us, as much as it’s so painful to let her go then and still wish she was here now… it certainly was her time.

15 years of being her diva, gorgeous self, she really lived life the way she opted. I am so happy I picked you out of all your brothers. I remember holding you with just one hand with your big blue eyes! and then I look at the photos of your fat spilling out haha, nothing can replace you p.

We are all growing old, that’s life – siblings love our, full time jobs are priority and the thought of her being in the house CONSTANTLY on her own is very sad, and I’m glad she is in a better place and especially not in pain!

She gave us so many laughs, she gave us so much happiness even if it was just her walking around the house and stopping right in the middle of the walk way! I’m grateful my last days with her was just me and her, we left how we started off baby girl. Missy followed me everywhere and it was funny and sweet and apparently that’s a sign but she often gets clingy when we come back from holidays? It’s just so hard to be a perfect pet owner because they can’t communicate like we do.

When we lost her I just thought I don’t want another one but I need a presence like her, craving her movement around us… most humans get another pet, but why do we do that to ourselves? Go through the pain of getting a gorgeous animal for it to leave you heartbroken, I just had a moment of “why are we so self destructive”.

At the moment we are not deciding on anything, it’s too soon despite it being nice to have a little thing walking around and playing again because it’s so wonderful to see them live around you.

I just wanted to show you guys my gorgeous girl and share just the very few out of a thousand memories I have with her. Enjoy the gallery I’ve set up guys 💕

(I found her only white whisker the other day on my carpet and thought it was plastic and it was in the spot she slept in! Heart is heavy) xox

Re-channeling

Wow, so many distractions from work to holidays to finding jobs… my pt has still been going on but my mind and body are certainly not on form.

I hate to admit when I have been lazy but at the same time I can’t give over that I am perfect. However, I pride myself on how I will always big myself up. At the end of the day I have maintained a great shape and I have more of a balance diet than a crazy healthy one. But with all these distractions it’s starting to take its toll.

My mind feels sluggish my legs feel sleepy. If this ain’t a wake up call I don’t know what is, I feel bloated constantly and that was one of the reasons I went down the healthy route to stop feeling so sluggish.

Tricks to stop this:

I am going to repeat the same foods

Shredded wheat and blueberries

Semi milk

1x Omelette with peppers and onion with a banana for a snack

If in work (pasta and tuna or pesto with pepper and onion)

Dinner made (always healthy)

Burn 400 cal on bike and do 20 minute hit sessions

This may be hard because I’ve been snacking a lot more than I’d like to admit. So this will definitely make me realise the lack of control I had during the next two weeks. But I need a serious detox and I have a good amount of time off work too so there shouldn’t be any distractions.

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Strictly:

One cheat day

No snacks until cheat day

Stay focused ❤️

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I really do treat my little corner of the internet like a diary and you can take from this what you will but hopefully this gives other motivation and inspiration on bettering themselves I found an amazing quote from Tony Robinson.

“No matter how many mistakes you make or slow the progress is your still doing better than everyone who isn’t trying.” – Tony Robinson.

Start your day right guys! Good luck with any challenges.

The beginning of the end

Click. End of all my submissions. Click. Three years of university are over.

Wow, well that was fast and never did I expect everything that happened to me would actually happen. Predicting the future was one of the toughest pills to swallow at the beginning of university

“This isn’t for me… what am I going to do? Who am I? Who am I or who do I even want to be? Where do I want to be?”

The journey was daunting, incredible, frightening, delicious and over all a success from the bottom of my heart.

It started off rocky, I hit a flat road (almost like those long stretches of road you see in America, beautiful scenery, watching and observing) and then the final hurdle which was more like a gradual climb. Nothing strenuous, just a gradual stepping stone of realisation that the journey is coming to an end and often looking back down to see how far you’ve come.

I’ve taken many steps and had many moments of looking back. To start I have often reflected on the bad times and have taken it as complete accretion – what’s life without lessons! I think it’s so important to reflect and take a breath. I’ve learnt rushing round and trying to get answers/ results FAST! You have to be patient in this life and take each day as it comes. This philosophy proved to be the best mind set for me.

I look at all of what I accomplished and how far I’ve come as a person and blessed that I saw it all till the end and with a greater understand of what and where I want to be. I see the people around me and just want to hug them till it hurts because they have been everything for me and I know their love and support will continue because these people are one in a million❤️

I’m just so happy to come away with the three years experience and feel blessed. I’m anxious to see what the future holds but I feel confident in myself and whats in reach! … Last stop 🎓 graduation!

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It’s been a good minute

Since starting uni my life is trains, essays and a lot of planning a head of schedule so my time on here has been limited.

I have some time tonight and thought why not talk about everything I’m scheduling, yes I know I treat this like a diary but perhaps I can help.

So uni newsdays/ placement is well and truly done so I am reunited with my loved ones, bed and getting on with all my important deadlines ❤️ I’m really going to miss this when I leave.

Talking about the end goals, I am planning well ahead before the big graduation day comes. I can’t tell you how many cv I have sent out to set up a job at the end and I have had some amazing opportunities from some and a recent one lately that I Hope goes well.

As well, planning my trip away with the girls! BALI!!!!!!!! I knew this day would come and I am just unbelievably blessed to have these girls in my life. I can’t wait to live it up in May. A great big hurra when I end uni in May.

I have been pre planning my meals and outfits and saving well ahead of time and the amazing thing is I don’t feel too stressed. At times I need to juggle and it gets hard but who doesn’t love a bit of pressure.

I can safely say I have thoroughly enjoyed the end of my uni journey along with every beautiful thing and everyone who’s been in it.

• I will be updating you guys on where I have been ordering my latest summer outfits and my tactics to get use out of one item. Sales can only help a girls purse string so far, upcycle is also something I’m really trying to get to grips with as well because it’s just so important! gotta make stuff last and the trick is to make it look different!

Smiling at the future

I always say to myself everyday, “I hope my loved ones and myself are happy, safe and healthy” to me those are three most important things in life and the universe has served us well.

2018

• I was dealt with a lot highs and a lot of lows this year, going into the new year with very little certainty of my future, of the people around me. I felt the biggest blow with my Nan passing, I never predicted it. She was gone and the realisation was frightening but we always knew how loved and how loving she was, she really was amazing❤️

I hit a turning point in my life…

Come March I really found my place.

• My summer had to be one of the best summers, I met the most amazing people and I am so proud of myself for putting myself out there because I have now found the best people, my life long friends! The love and respect I receive is overwhelming and I couldn’t ask for better people to come into my life.

• I’ll always remember this year, I found my best friend who is she truly a blessing! Always got my back and I could go on forever but she is everything a gorgeous person and I’m so lucky, future looks good with this kid!

• I had the most amazing trip to Thailand, I worked so hard for! Getting fit and healthy and has really made an impact on my everyday life!

• Ben and I had an amazing time and I got to see even more how he is so beautiful inside and out, he will always be so good to me when I need him the most, he makes me feel so special and he is truly one of a kind and such a gorgeous human. I really got to see my future with him this trip and I always consider him as all of me I can see we truly are one

• I really have flourished in University I’m embracing it like would never imagined. I will be so gutted to finish because my topics of choice are everything to me and I’m really starting to make an impact ready for next year!

• My 21st birthday, the BEST birthday yet!!!!!! I was so spoilt and I had everyone around me that I love so dearly to which made my birthday, it truly was one I’ll never forget (or remember consider I was so drunk) but I remember half of the night so that counts!

2019

There is so much to look forward too next year, I have so many assignments due which I look forward too I know I’m freak but that’s me ok.

• Graduation

• A lush family holiday with Ben and potential holiday on the cards with my g’s

Just general love laugh play is what I see for myself in 2019!

The first year I’m going into with such positivity and lack of dread! There will always be bumps in life its never perfect but when you got the people you know treasure you and support you, it lessers the blow! As long as you and everyone you love is happy, safe and healthy that is what I’ll always prey for.

I’m thankful for all the people around me this 2018 going into 2019

Merry Christmas and happy new year 🥰❤️

My red cardigan and gold coin necklace are personal to me

She will never stop living in memory and certainly lives in my clothes.

Today I visited my nan’s grave at the cemetery, it felt strange. Almost like I was looking at a different name and felt sad for someone else. As the day went on, she become more and more part of my day.

I was inspired to do a style post today, its gloomy, wet and dull here in Wales and so my hopes of wearing a black dotty sundress went out the door. I went hunting for my black frilled top with flared sleeves, to go with my mom jeans – but as I walked into the spare room, (the room that is now mine and my mother’s wardrobe) I saw all of my nan’s old jumpers and cardigans.

Most of them are going to a lady who makes blankets and toys out of jumpers and cardigans. I chose an elephant toy (I’ve been thinking of an elephant toy especially for when I have children). I saw this red Sheer cardigan peeping out and thought how gorgeous. THE cardigan I have been searching for, thank you nan. Lovely fit, not too loose not too tight, and I love this chenille material, its like a soft velvet. Chic and relaxed its the best combination for my preferred style. The cardigan is from Marks and Spencer’s. For anyone who lives in the UK would know this is a quality and expensive cardi. I had to feature my nan’s gold coin necklace. Yes, authentic! I don’t need to be buying any replicas.

This red cardigan is not disappearing any time soon, I don’t have a choice in the rubbish weather we keep having but I love to layer my outfits, so this would be great wrapped round my waist or underneath a denim jacket and dotty sundress. Keep an eye out to see this next look! I’m very excited and feeling very emotional. I just love how she is still very much involved physically, the cardigan smells like her so much. The freaky part is as well, it was made in Thailand… coincidence. Fits like a glove and my mother is pretty jealous I found this beauty amongst the mountain of jumpers!

Angel xo

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The Mystery Blogger Award

I would like to give a massive thank you to the lovely blogger Opinionating for nominating me and your kind words. To be nominated with this one is fantastic! Opinionating feels my content motivates her and thats all I ever want my followers to feel. Some sort of passion and fire because it’s exactly how I feel when I see successful bloggers, I just want to make my way up and anything is possible if you believe and put your mind too it. I feel I have the strength as I have proven so much in my life and I’m 20!

What is Mystery Blogger Award?

“This is an award for amazing bloggers with indigenous posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging and they do it with so much love and passion.”

Rules

• Thank whoever nominated you and include link to their blog
• Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
• Nominate 10-20 bloggers you feel deserve the award
• Answer the questions from the person who nominated you
• Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird or funny one
• Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog

3 Things about me:

1. I have to drink two cups, one morning one night time, of apple cider vinegar every day until Friday. This helps my metabolism and loose weight fast!
2. I have to, have to, HAVE TO have three meals a day, brunch throws me off and I just need that structure in my diet. I just feel like crap if I don’t have my set meals. God I sound like a granny.
3. I love having goals, I just love achieving! I just have to get what I want and being a perfectionist can be draining but I would never change that part of myself, its all of me really.

Questions for me:

1. What is your goal for 2018?
   – My goal is to just be happy and always put that first, always have ambitions which I won’t have problems with. I’m always finding a challenge! always trust my instincts (that are more often or not always correct) and do what I know my nan would want me to do. I am on a certain path right now to become semi successful in blogging. I love it so much and just really want to build on it more, its a fantastic place for creative thought.
2. If you could have coffee with one book character, who would it be?
   – this may seem very uneducated but hey a movie that is also in book form is good too! So definitely Bridget Jones because she is the double of me and I attract that sort of energy. My two best friends are 100% Bridget Joneses! ALSO, I would love a coffee (but perhaps she would drink something more expensive and lively like champagne) but Daisy Buchanan from The Great Gatsby, a classic. Every word she speaks is delicious and dramatic.
3. Where are you planning to travel to next?
   – Well me and my partner are thinking of going to Italy or Greece, and recently a hotel in France contacted me on Instagram and it is a Vineyard between Pisa and Florence so that seems amazing. Plus I am thinking of going to Paris with my best friend that same year, a lot is potentially on the cards for next year so I am excited.
4. What is your favourite thing about yourself?
   – I am self assured and know what I want and whats good for me. I love that.
5. What would be one piece of advice you would want to give your younger self?
   – Oh gosh there is so much, well perhaps I would give little Jess a hug and tell her how successful and amazing she is gunna be when she grows up (yes vain) but who cares what others think of me, I have worked so hard to get to where I am and little me used to be so unconfident!!!! I never believed I would amount to anything and so did a lot of people, I would dream of having the perfect man in early teens and it came true, [little Jess screams inside]. It’s not always about boys when your a teen, but now to have someone love you and need you the way you both do is a feeling that can’t be put into words, but I guess ‘He’s my family’ is a great start.
   I went through a tough time when I was in my early teens so I would just sit little Jess down and say ‘don’t sweat the small stuff, your wasting your time’ overthinking and hormones… not good …but yeah I was a worried child then, but other than that little glitch – VERY HAPPY, go lucky AND BUBBLY CHILD around friends and family.

My nominees are:
1. Melange of Words
2. Magic in Everyday
3. Diva named Dom
4. Makeup Dreamer
5. Interest In Me
6. Chetnatripathi
7. Curiosity
8. February Circus
Questions to my nominees:
1. What makes you, you!?
2. Do you have any habits, i.e bite nails, tap foot?
3. Have you accomplished dreams, you never thought were possible?
4. What do you want the most right now!?
5. How would you brand your fashion style?
Again, thank you opinionating for nominating me, such a huge honour and I feel so blessed.
Have a great Sunday everyone xo

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Where I find Zen

I don’t know if it is because I am consciously looking for any source that surrounds me with the feeling of harmony, but it has come to my attention mindfulness has certainly been found by so many. I can’t say it’s fact but it feels as though people are actively looking for mindfulness within modern day society. Most are delving into enlightened paths, not so much reaching enlightenment like the Buddha, but enlightening their senses to what makes them feel so trapped and erratic. Everyone is trying to find their place, as am I and found a little corner within my hometown that is just adorable.

For anyone visiting Wales and fancy taking some time out within their day to relax and get back in touch with yourself, WaterStone book shop in Cardiff should be on the top of your list. This is my 2nd best spot… the beach is first of course!

But I guess the beach doesn’t have this charming feel. When you walk in it’s so sweet and the quaint stairs lead you up to my favourite part of the shop, which is the spiritual writing and self help section. I took another detour in search of a mindfulness book and ended up with something more adventurous. I do tend to go for more thoughtful books nowadays, but like the buddha teaches about the ‘middle way’ and how too much of something can be bad – I agree and went for a fiction. Im already set for a more holistic book ready for the beaches in Thailand, a book by the monk and peace activist Thich Nhat Hanh.

I sat down with all these books until I made a decision and the staff in their are so helpful and its great to see the place so busy and receiving lots of business. It really deserves it as it has a warm welcoming feel, with it’s own cafe… how can it not attract people. Sat there with a coffee and cake reading your books. I would be typing away in their cafe if I had the choice but my unfortunately my Mac was not with me.

But as I’m home and looking at my new displayed night stand, the showcase of books make me feel happier because books are so fulfilling and make me very sleepy. I don’t sleep that well so this is very therapeutic! Stacked up nicely with the help of my two marble horses passed down from my nan. She always makes a mark in my life. It’s been a great day! Oh, and this gorgeous brown leather book and pen from Waterstones is my trusty blogging book. Packed full of ideas and notes. Thanks Waterstones 🖤

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