Next years words awaits a fresh new voice

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2019 was all about planning, putting my ducks in order and certainly adjusting to some exciting and nerve racking changes.

I have gone on numerous adventures and have come away with some unforgettable memories. Really heavy bumps and incredible highs. Loving and loosing, failing and accomplishing in regards to education and career. It’s been crazy and I’ve grown along the way!

2020 is a time where I settle into my new changes, absorb every bit of learning and adapt in order to do so, being present is part of my resolution. Taking each day at a time, really focusing on the day in front of me and so far… I’m on track.

Toning and loosing a few pounds! Sticking to my no carb for lunch diet and no sugar all week except weekends. It was one hell of a struggle to balance these things in my life since being full time. But I found my balance and mojo and can’t wait to kick it!

Lastly, I would like to focus on a hobby. I have always done gym and cheer but since I am training others in one and being trained in both I would like to focus on something all by myself and conquer! I’ve seen some amazing stretches from the girls in cheer, some fantastic core strength and flexibility in some people who partake in yoga! The positions look so cool and and talented, I would love to achieve that high level of focus, flexibility and all round toning!

Just thoughtful view points/ reca for the upcoming future:

Professionally 2020:

I am so excited to see what 2020 brings, various marketing projects where I can highlight my skills, to which have already been recognised with high praise! I am always learning and growing as a person so to know that 2020 is looking up to be a huge lesson learner is so exciting! I would love more responsibility and I am getting a taster of it as we peak into the new year and it’s just such a wonderful feeling knowing your progressing and succeeding and what you love doing.

Emotionally in 2020:

Being present is so key. We often get so excited about the future and that’s natural! But the facts are, whatever you wish for and hope to achieve will come if you work hard enough and then once it’s there you look back and what you could have payed more attention too! You keep wishing for things to happen you by pass all the other things you wished for in the past that are currently happening. Also being present helps you retain information better and have a a clearer mind space and that’s a huge plus!

My vegan movement

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I understand it’s social justice to the vulnerable animals however I am not jumping on this one fully because I’d be a hypocrite in saying that I hate to eat animals because I am a meat eater! Not a big one but I’m very sorry to anyone who is vegan I will not be completely swayed because my mind and soul is just not equipped for a plant based life.

I do however enjoy this new vegan experience VERY VERY much. The transition has been so easy, well not completely as I said I can’t go full monty but finding, researching, eating has been so simple? Not as complex as I thought it would be. Let me show you some of the items I’ve bought. They are stunning and taste just as good and of course they are amazing detox items 😱

These are just a few of what I’ve been buying. Of course falafel with hummus and avocado which is stunning on a burger with sweet potato fries! Vegan cheese is incredible too!

I couldn’t recommenced these items enough they really give you the bug to switch your daily items. There is a vegan shop next to my new works … always feels lush saying that… and I can’t wait to replace my breakfast and dinner with some vegan options. I will keep you posted on my “body is a temple” post and see how far I’ve got and how well I’ve been coping.

Dare I say it now but I think it’s gunna be a piece of vegan cake.

Missing Missy

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August was the worst month in such a very very long time. So many lows and the last hit of them all was putting my gorgeous P to sleep. Kidney failure.

It’s crazy how animals can let you know but also show no signs, we noticed she was drinking more but she’s older too and the confusing combination of general old age to sickness signs is difficult for any pet owner to pin point.

I have to say she went at a time that was right for all of us, as much as it’s so painful to let her go then and still wish she was here now… it certainly was her time.

15 years of being her diva, gorgeous self, she really lived life the way she opted. I am so happy I picked you out of all your brothers. I remember holding you with just one hand with your big blue eyes! and then I look at the photos of your fat spilling out haha, nothing can replace you p.

We are all growing old, that’s life – siblings love our, full time jobs are priority and the thought of her being in the house CONSTANTLY on her own is very sad, and I’m glad she is in a better place and especially not in pain!

She gave us so many laughs, she gave us so much happiness even if it was just her walking around the house and stopping right in the middle of the walk way! I’m grateful my last days with her was just me and her, we left how we started off baby girl. Missy followed me everywhere and it was funny and sweet and apparently that’s a sign but she often gets clingy when we come back from holidays? It’s just so hard to be a perfect pet owner because they can’t communicate like we do.

When we lost her I just thought I don’t want another one but I need a presence like her, craving her movement around us… most humans get another pet, but why do we do that to ourselves? Go through the pain of getting a gorgeous animal for it to leave you heartbroken, I just had a moment of “why are we so self destructive”.

At the moment we are not deciding on anything, it’s too soon despite it being nice to have a little thing walking around and playing again because it’s so wonderful to see them live around you.

I just wanted to show you guys my gorgeous girl and share just the very few out of a thousand memories I have with her. Enjoy the gallery I’ve set up guys 💕

(I found her only white whisker the other day on my carpet and thought it was plastic and it was in the spot she slept in! Heart is heavy) xox

Re-channeling

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Wow, so many distractions from work to holidays to finding jobs… my pt has still been going on but my mind and body are certainly not on form.

I hate to admit when I have been lazy but at the same time I can’t give over that I am perfect. However, I pride myself on how I will always big myself up. At the end of the day I have maintained a great shape and I have more of a balance diet than a crazy healthy one. But with all these distractions it’s starting to take its toll.

My mind feels sluggish my legs feel sleepy. If this ain’t a wake up call I don’t know what is, I feel bloated constantly and that was one of the reasons I went down the healthy route to stop feeling so sluggish.

Tricks to stop this:

I am going to repeat the same foods

Shredded wheat and blueberries

Semi milk

1x Omelette with peppers and onion with a banana for a snack

If in work (pasta and tuna or pesto with pepper and onion)

Dinner made (always healthy)

Burn 400 cal on bike and do 20 minute hit sessions

This may be hard because I’ve been snacking a lot more than I’d like to admit. So this will definitely make me realise the lack of control I had during the next two weeks. But I need a serious detox and I have a good amount of time off work too so there shouldn’t be any distractions.

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Strictly:

One cheat day

No snacks until cheat day

Stay focused ❤️

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I really do treat my little corner of the internet like a diary and you can take from this what you will but hopefully this gives other motivation and inspiration on bettering themselves I found an amazing quote from Tony Robinson.

“No matter how many mistakes you make or slow the progress is your still doing better than everyone who isn’t trying.” – Tony Robinson.

Start your day right guys! Good luck with any challenges.

The beginning of the end

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Click. End of all my submissions. Click. Three years of university are over.

Wow, well that was fast and never did I expect everything that happened to me would actually happen. Predicting the future was one of the toughest pills to swallow at the beginning of university

“This isn’t for me… what am I going to do? Who am I? Who am I or who do I even want to be? Where do I want to be?”

The journey was daunting, incredible, frightening, delicious and over all a success from the bottom of my heart.

It started off rocky, I hit a flat road (almost like those long stretches of road you see in America, beautiful scenery, watching and observing) and then the final hurdle which was more like a gradual climb. Nothing strenuous, just a gradual stepping stone of realisation that the journey is coming to an end and often looking back down to see how far you’ve come.

I’ve taken many steps and had many moments of looking back. To start I have often reflected on the bad times and have taken it as complete accretion – what’s life without lessons! I think it’s so important to reflect and take a breath. I’ve learnt rushing round and trying to get answers/ results FAST! You have to be patient in this life and take each day as it comes. This philosophy proved to be the best mind set for me.

I look at all of what I accomplished and how far I’ve come as a person and blessed that I saw it all till the end and with a greater understand of what and where I want to be. I see the people around me and just want to hug them till it hurts because they have been everything for me and I know their love and support will continue because these people are one in a million❤️

I’m just so happy to come away with the three years experience and feel blessed. I’m anxious to see what the future holds but I feel confident in myself and whats in reach! … Last stop 🎓 graduation!

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It’s been a good minute

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Since starting uni my life is trains, essays and a lot of planning a head of schedule so my time on here has been limited.

I have some time tonight and thought why not talk about everything I’m scheduling, yes I know I treat this like a diary but perhaps I can help.

So uni newsdays/ placement is well and truly done so I am reunited with my loved ones, bed and getting on with all my important deadlines ❤️ I’m really going to miss this when I leave.

Talking about the end goals, I am planning well ahead before the big graduation day comes. I can’t tell you how many cv I have sent out to set up a job at the end and I have had some amazing opportunities from some and a recent one lately that I Hope goes well.

As well, planning my trip away with the girls! BALI!!!!!!!! I knew this day would come and I am just unbelievably blessed to have these girls in my life. I can’t wait to live it up in May. A great big hurra when I end uni in May.

I have been pre planning my meals and outfits and saving well ahead of time and the amazing thing is I don’t feel too stressed. At times I need to juggle and it gets hard but who doesn’t love a bit of pressure.

I can safely say I have thoroughly enjoyed the end of my uni journey along with every beautiful thing and everyone who’s been in it.

  • I will be updating you guys on where I have been ordering my latest summer outfits and my tactics to get use out of one item. Sales can only help a girls purse string so far, upcycle is also something I’m really trying to get to grips with as well because it’s just so important! gotta make stuff last and the trick is to make it look different!

Smiling at the future

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I always say to myself everyday, “I hope my loved ones and myself are happy, safe and healthy” to me those are three most important things in life and the universe has served us well.

2018

  • I was dealt with a lot highs and a lot of lows this year, going into the new year with very little certainty of my future, of the people around me. I felt the biggest blow with my Nan passing, I never predicted it. She was gone and the realisation was frightening but we always knew how loved and how loving she was, she really was amazing❤️

I hit a turning point in my life…

Come March I really found my place.

  • My summer had to be one of the best summers, I met the most amazing people and I am so proud of myself for putting myself out there because I have now found the best people, my life long friends! The love and respect I receive is overwhelming and I couldn’t ask for better people to come into my life.
  • I’ll always remember this year, I found my best friend who is she truly a blessing! Always got my back and I could go on forever but she is everything a gorgeous person and I’m so lucky, future looks good with this kid!

  • I had the most amazing trip to Thailand, I worked so hard for! Getting fit and healthy and has really made an impact on my everyday life!
  • Ben and I had an amazing time and I got to see even more how he is so beautiful inside and out, he will always be so good to me when I need him the most, he makes me feel so special and he is truly one of a kind and such a gorgeous human. I really got to see my future with him this trip and I always consider him as all of me I can see we truly are one

  • I really have flourished in University I’m embracing it like would never imagined. I will be so gutted to finish because my topics of choice are everything to me and I’m really starting to make an impact ready for next year!
  • My 21st birthday, the BEST birthday yet!!!!!! I was so spoilt and I had everyone around me that I love so dearly to which made my birthday, it truly was one I’ll never forget (or remember consider I was so drunk) but I remember half of the night so that counts!

2019

There is so much to look forward too next year, I have so many assignments due which I look forward too I know I’m freak but that’s me ok.

  • Graduation
  • A lush family holiday with Ben and potential holiday on the cards with my g’s
    Just general love laugh play is what I see for myself in 2019!
  • The first year I’m going into with such positivity and lack of dread! There will always be bumps in life its never perfect but when you got the people you know treasure you and support you, it lessers the blow! As long as you and everyone you love is happy, safe and healthy that is what I’ll always prey for.
  • I’m thankful for all the people around me this 2018 going into 2019

    Merry Christmas and happy new year 🥰❤️

    Success is found in your daily routine ~ John c. Maxwell

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    Winter is among us and that means it’s the beginning of university. The beginning of the end for me today, it will be my last first day ever as it’s my final year. I’m going to make the best out of it. Really embrace the last step in education and just work work work my ass off. I have the best people around me to support me so I’m really lucky and I saw a quote earlier which hit home and it said …

    “Your only limit is you”

    What comes with breaking barriers is positive thinking and that comes with mindfulness. Monday forward I will practise yoga, and I won’t be full throttle mat out and peace music in the back. It will be more like…

    Bed covers off,

    Sit-up

    And begin some simple stretches from head to toe.approx 5 minutes

    Sit up against the door with a blanket and just shut my eyes or sit and try not to think about anything for 3 minutes.

    I heard this really helps you set your day on the right path. Not opening your phone checking social media, not waking up and straight away writing lists for the day. Just taking time out in the morning to re group and then face the day.

    I can’t wait to start this process properly and this morning was slightly difficult than I thought as I was itching to grab my phone but I did some yoga and woke up very early so that I could take more time out to wake up properly.

    Start your day off positive guys! Have a great day,thanks for reading.

    The destination of our dreams

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    So Thailand is officially over and what a trip it has been. Phuket, chaing mai, Bangkok, khao lak, the jungle!

    Everything has been such an experience.

    If you want to know where, how much and how to plan this holiday go to the bottom of this post!

    To follow the kardashians pit fall and peak tradition:

    It be hard to say a pit fall but the one that stands out to me was the food poisoning. I was lucky to only have for a couple of days thanks to the amazing doctors and staff out there in phuket. I assumed I would receive barely any help as you’re under this idea of “Thailand = 3rd world” but the people in phuket were just amazingly helpful and so considerate. Their English was perfect too!!! Always praying as we walked past, always blessing us.

    The peak of our trip was everything. Even with the illness, the people for one and Ben was beyond. I am such a lucky person to have him as my other half. Let’s just say that.

    Phuket

    Out first trip was to phang nga bay were incredible. The rock formations from millions of years ago made you trip. Great geography lessons by the way. I loved canoeing through the caves and battling my fear of small spaces. I mean my eyes were closed but still done it and Ben said the rock face was 3 inches away from my head and we had to lay down to get to the lagoon which didn’t take long. We searched other lagoons and spotted rock formations that had faces and looked like cartoon characters! And a tour guide gave me a rose shaped from a leaf!

    The way people lived on the floating village, insane. If the kids played football and the ball went out of the floating patch of plastic then they’d jump right in to get it!

    I loved the beaches I mean look at the water and the crazy weather background.

    Our hotel was surrounded by thick forestry and we often had little friends come into what seemed like a rainforest bathroom. Two frogs just outside the bathroom by the water feature called biggie and smalls. Yes we were sad to name them. And then a friendly lizard that stayed on the walls until one night he reached into Ben’s shorts.

    Chaing mai was most definitely my favourite city!!! We got there in the night and we made it to the Sunday market which was very lucky because the city is best known for the Sunday market, a fast crowded place full of unique and cliche items at great prices. Gorgeous bags I could have taken so many home but you know… suitcase allowance. The temple of doi suthep held so much stories and you really felt part of the story with the tour guide we had who was an angel!

    One of the tapestries told the story of the relic found after a monk dreamt of the relic of the Buddha. Temples were destroyed after a war and believed all relics were destroyed but one remained somewhere in Chang mai and the people of Chang mai found it after his dream and gave to the king and he kept for 13 years and one day he touched it and it broke in two and he kept the one peice that was small and he prayed for miracles and sent the biggest peice on top of a white elephant and the elephant roamed until it found a destination and the elephant circled the top of a mountain 3 times before dying and was said to be a spiritual meaning so they burried the relic and made a golden dome on top and that’s why they have the temple of doi suthep.

    The children on the steps sit all day in traditional thai clothes and wait for people to give money and take pics with the tourists for snacks whilst their parents worked all day. You just would never find that in the UK.

    Ben bought me a jade stone which is very expensive and is Thailand’s most precious stone as it is originated there.

    We had the best hotel too surround by 100 different types of trees! And loads of cocarp in the ponds.

    Bangkok was another world all together, before landing and looking out to the city there was a must of city fog hovering over it and you knew you were in for a treat. A great of hot smog, pollution, lady boys and just stand still traffic. I have to say a did my fair share of moaning. I’m Jessica Morley and I don’t like the bloody hot fumes and shit tour guides. Yes Bangkok grand temple was hit or miss with me. Beautiful beautiful creations, a mass of sparkling jewls, but unfoutnely not much of a back story but just something pretty to look at and once I’d seen I wanted out. Very crowded and the tour guide was like yep so this is that and this is this you got 30 mins to look around. I guess it’s not his fault if there’s not really anything to say other than the king has a lot of connections to the area. The tall pointy triangle things are tomb stones of all the generations of royal so that was wack!

    But when we hit the night life of Bangkok that was much better!!! We headed to one of the most favourites roof top bars and had some unusual food. Very high which made my legs shake the whole time and the bathroom experience for Ben was extraordinary. Peeing infront of a huge window looking across the city, I hope no one had binoculars in the other building’s…

    We headed back to the south, so by this point we hit the north and middle of Thailand and we were heading south again but to khao lak.

    Khao lak moracea hotel was breathtaking. Right on the beach front and stunning beach views. Ben spent ages in the sea smashing into the waves whilst I was quick to get out once I lost my fave sunglasses to the tretourous waves. They were choppy the entire time we were away so who ever said Thailand seas are calm… they are not in August! But nonetheless more fun for us! Wish I had my body board.

    We went to the jungle just before we settled in our beachview room. The jungle was loud and scary a hub of activity and so remote it felt wildly refreshing to be away from the 1st world sounds and really concentrate on breathing and just looking out at the lake, trees and monkeys instead of Instagram on a sunbed. (Guilty pleasure)

    I have to say I didn’t use my phone as much on this part of the trip expect to take the generic picture of the setting and back setting of where we stayed. We enjoyed our activities phone free and some things are best kept for memories and inside your head. I think you can’t put a price on that Because if your busy taking photos your never really in the moment.

    The water was incredibly warm and felt so good to just relax and be with nature. At night nature bit us a lot!!!!! Damn midgies but hey, it didn’t matter as much when we were canoeing through the lakes and seeing all the wildlife surround us. Ben did most of the work bless him whilst I just took it all in but hey I only got little arms. It really felt like something of a blue lagoon movie but with actual tents and kitchen food available.

    We went hiking one day which was definitely scary! Leeches on us and slippery slopes. Scared to touch the wrong tree in case it kills you or makes you itch. I like that kind of rush but I’m not doing for things sucking my blood. The ranger married me though, haha!he made me a ring out of just a peice of straw!

    The elephants were heaven. A dream comtrue, the reason why we booked the trip in the first place. You gear how the elephants are such social animals and that you can guess their emotions by their eyes and I really felt what they felt and how happy they were the elephants were all females as they run in families where as the lakes tend to drift. Pfft usual. And these ladies really loved eachother they stood by eachither side and were constantly huddled and making noises. When I hugged the trunk of an elephant it made this tiger like noise and the woman said it’s because she was happy with her activity. We washed her and fed her and she was in her element as well as we were. When the rain hit it was like a toy coming down on them from the sky. The eardrums took a beating because wow they were loud and just full of life. So amazing to see and a true blessing.

    How much, how to book and who with :

    So if you have come down to the very bottom, this is the run down.

    Basically how we done it was we went to Thomson and they have a sister branch with hayes and Jarvis. And they speacilise in these types of holidays rather than Thomson so even though we went through to Thomson hayes and Jarvis were the ones to hook us up with all 4 star hotels, all the flights there and back and internal and all with private transportation to and from airports and trip advisors that visited you at hotel to let you know about pick up times and or places to go for trips which was bet helpful.

    I would suggest booking with hayes and Jarvis. And this entire holiday cost three and half thousand each. For two weeks and a day.

    This included breakfast and everything else was self catering. You could find cheaper online and do your self but the struggle is real and you wouldn’t have an easier time of getting on and off to places like we did. No stress and just pure fun! So the money was well worth it. Save save save save!!!!

    Achieving “the middle way” comes with clear thoughts

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    I’ve learnt how to achieve the middle way through dieting. To love and indulge when allowed. I.e weekends and to always have determination when it comes Monday.

    The tricky thing I faced sunday was knowing I was out monday, today, eating and drinking tasty food. Today I learned to relax on this bank holiday Monday. It’s hard for me sometimes, I’ve had more than 2 bad days which is not what I do. It’s 2 days-max and back to the grind. But you can’t pass up a day like this heatwave and not drink some naughty cocktails and well, salad would be nice but if your gunna go bad just go all out.

    I’m happy to get stuck in to some rubbish but sometimes, I can feel like such a failure after and start observing my body like I’ve put on a stone. I can be so hard on myself and that’s not the way to be, especially when it’s not something I do all the time. I deserve to feel guilt free during this long weekend.

    To indulge in some bad food and to let myself feel happy and deserving of it, but also, to know and be determined to get back on my diet.

    Our day:

    Me and my boyfriend went to Cardiff bay. It’s a place by the docks and so many boats go in and out, so it’s nice to see and always nice to walk around the harbour and watch the world go by.

    It was Ben’s last day of the long weekend before he goes back to work so we treated ourselves!

    Two pina coladas, and some beers for him

    Pizza express meals!

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