No flowers with out rain

“Smooth seas never make a good sailor”

I’ve felt a lot, a lot of lows and a lot of highs. My horoscope and palm reads have indicated that my life has no middle ground. My life moves from one extreme to the other. That’s how my life has been, with any situation, with people, family and within myself. My emotions and thought process flys on and off the radar.

Today, I felt balanced. I don’t know what come over me but I left the place where I had spent the day and realised nothing crossed my mind. It was just me, my partner and I, sitting, chatting and laughing. Family visits and warm glows within us. How happy we are and noticing the love we have and the love our family has for us.

Im just so lucky. I’m just so lucky, and at times I feel out of luck. But I am not, you always want what you can’t get, you always compare, taken each day at a time is hard but you can get there. Calculating my day and my thought process and putting a positive spin on everything.

I’ve noticed my negative thoughts have turned positive and realising I blow things way up.

I’m getting good and I’m feeling good. I’m helping myself to become more balanced despite my fate line, but I couldn’t of done it without the support my loved ones give me, everyday.

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How mindfulness gave more essence to my life.

Let’s start from the beginning of my personal journey. 

A levels, that’s where my love of buddhism developed. I learnt the life and the teachings of the Buddha and I became hooked on what I considered the perfect philosophy. I always wondered how to bring buddhism into my life, but you get caught up in things and become busy, you forget and move on. 

My first year of university was a huge stress ride and I became very upset and felt very lonely a lot of the time. I lost a lot of meaningless friendships. Which made me feel empty, realising I was completely at a loss with people that didnt have much of grip anyway.

I felt completely lost and helpless. With perseverance, (and a lack of options anyways,) I stuck out the year and waited for the 2nd year to kick things up. They did and my soul friends, partner and family can see how well I am doing and how enthusiastic I am about things now. 

Through the tough journey the people that cared and gave me love and support made me feel whole again. They gave me essence to my life. 

My personality is a firey nature. Which can be good but quite self destructive. My family on both sides have terrible tempers and bipolar tendancies. My nan unfortunately passed away with cancer at such a young age during my A levels. We all knew how much of a stressed person she could be. Perhaps that was one of the things that killed her. 

Buddhism has fluttered my mind through these time gaps since finishing school. To do it or not to do? How and what do I need to do to become part of it? Fleeting thoughts that occurred. 

As of recently, with wider knowledge to my desired perspective, I am in fact following the practise. To help give my self understanding and perspective on how to live my life as balanced and as mindful as possible. 

Life is chaos and to have your life achieving balance is a perfect outlook to have. Since following the practise I have been so much more calmer, wanting to achieve a better health. (As I have health issues when put into a stressful environment.) To have a better mind and respective nature. 

I feel more positive things are circuling around me with the more positive outcomes I put into my life. Times can be hard but now I have a path to follow I will be able to gain more perspective about things. 

My mother bought a happiness book by the wonderful and so relatable lady, Miss Cotton. It’s great and her little captions help set out a plan for me to talk about certain topics for each day. 

“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” – The Buddha

What I think about the Revamped Unicorn Cosmetic brushes

Of a rating from 1 to 10 on quality, it’s a 10. On a rating of 1 to 10 for applying it’s a 10. So soft and leave no streak marks im sold. These brushes blend so easily! This professional brush kit is extremely luxurious, in just the packaging itself. The only brush I dislike is the eyebrow sculpting brush. It does not apply my product on the way I would like compare to my other eyebrow brush shapers. 

There is peice of paper on top of the diamond case that comes with instructions from left to right on how the brushes work. So in that case for people who are unfamiliar with certain brushes you would have to remember what the brushes are for each time you use them, these brushes are pretty self explanatory if your a makeup lover. For first timers, perhaps technique brushes with labels on the handle of what certain brushes are would be better, to get used to the shape and angle of brushes. 

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My 2017 timeline

Well it was a tough start to the year in terms of dreams and goals. Me and my partner struggled to settled down in our roles of university and apprenticeship. 

We hated where we were and couldn’t see a positive end. Both worrying and teary nights, motivating ourselves to keep going and hoping things got better. 

They did! Things got better as they do, I found my interests and my ideal goals for where I want to be and for when I get out of university. My partner settled into the work place and is flying through his job! 

We had our first holiday together in Spain and this is where I become serious about fashion blogging and found workplacement with a number one global online magazine, as a style blogger. 

I discovered my strengths from journalism and what I enjoyed, thus being editing and wanting to go into video production. I found out that my goal was to progress into creative director in both documentaries (on the environment) and in fashion magazines. 

I lost a lot of friends through out the year. Randomly not speaking not seeing eachother for months, distancing because life moves on or the simple fact that people are rude. That’s fine because you realise your so much better off. 

I got upset and chased after people but realising who was there all along, made me feel like a brand new person. 

The people who have always been there and always supported me through all my achievements have been my loved ones! 

I am so greatful for a happy and healthy family and that this year we were all safe. That’s all I wish for in the new year. 

My resolutions are

To be more calm 

To loose a stone and to fit into a definite size 8.  

To find great work experience and to pass with a good grade in my second year. 

To pronounce my T’ s properly for broadcast. This seriously going to be the hardest one!!!

Here are my favourite moments

Work I produced this year

My holidays with my amazing partner!

Coldplay concert!

My best gals

MY 20TH!

Lost some work pals this year but gained a bunch load which is great because it started to get lonely when people started to leave.

I’m ending the new year on a high note and I am feeling very content. I’m happy and lucky and healthy that’s all a girl can ask for and the same for my loved ones❤ Roll on 2018 and bring on Thailand with my man❤ AHHH elephants❤ 

HAPPY NEW YEAR💋

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REAL lips for the countdown kiss!

It’s new years eve eve and what better blog post to do than a quick review and tutorial on the REAL Technique limmited edition lip kit, ready for your 12pm kiss!

I got this pretty kit for my birthday, the handy case tube is something on its own. It has a little mirror at the end of the case for on the move touch ups, so if your struggling to get to the girls bathroom, as new years is crazy, you’ll have no struggles!

The kit comes with four brushes, to help you line, texturise, colour and exfoliate/plump your lips. The kit was made from the creators, Sam and Nic, who are infact sisters. Well thanks Sam and Nic because your my lip savour. For ages I was using sharp ends to exfoliate and plump my lips but now I have these beauties. 

To check out how they worked for me follow my pics below: 

My lips before I used the flat smoothing brush

When using this smoothing brush, its best to use vaseline or anything oily on the lips to help glide the brush. The hairs on the brush are quiet tough and would hurt very much on dry lips. 

A Few minutes later…

Then the lip brush to colour in my Ted Baker nude créme lipstick.

Next is the liner to perfect the outline of my lips.

And then to wipe away over lineing and to shadow the cupids bow with highlight.

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This is how my lips looked after…

My overall view is beyond positive. I have received the gift of all gifts for my lips. Winter can be harsh so always take care of your pout and make sure to exfoliate the dead and dry skin with lots of Vaseline. The flat smooth brush is my favourite by far as it’s replaced anything pointy in my room to compensate as a tool for massaging my lips. The brushes are smooth and they glide lovely onto the lips! A perfect gift for the perfect kiss. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE AND ALL MY FANTASTIC FOLLOWERS. Thanks for reading this year and keep me posted on your own posts👍

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Going out with a bang 

Bye bye Spain. Hello spain, ugh I mean Britian… wow it’s hot! I’ve gone from one extreme to the other, which means summer clothes ain’t fading away from my blog anytime soon. 

My time away was amazing and I couldn’t of asked for any better with my man. It was our first holiday and we didn’t kill eachother by the end, I think that is a success. In all seriousness, he has been perfect, for some part of the holiday I have been a little ill  (stupid aircon, such a love hate relationship) and he was always there for me. I’m struggling to find the words to say how happy and lucky I am.