Since my last post its been nothing but hit after hit, I have been plodding along and getting to tipping point of feeling maximum fustrsations ready to throw in the towel with everything and just buy an elephant and live in the jungle. I’m glad I didn’t though, well, the elephant jungle thing that’s one hell of a runaway plan! I’m glad every time I felt beat down I kept standing up and walking just that bit more to seek a path.
They say when bad things happen, they come in three’s and so here was the trinity of my awful luck:
Got so close in interview process for marketing jobs and did not get offers, a real devastation when you get so far only to be told no and you revised so hard. Lost my job at Coast, my safety net was pulled under neath my feet. Felt stuck and then had to put my gorgeous Missy to sleep, I just felt numb!
I held my hands up, “universe, I’m done you can just work your magic and lets see what happens.” The more I tried to have a grip of everything the more it was slipping out of my grasp.
Loosing P was just tipping point and I just needed to break away from searching and just focus on the present. I needed a job quick so it was just looking for full time work in what ever I found remotely interesting. The unexpected happened… I get a phone call about a job and I’m a full time Marketing Assistant just like that.
Let’s say I was shocked but more shocked at how my mum predicted this sort of thing. Mum believed something would happen in a months time, and that she’d book a flight ticket for me to go to Turkey and something would come up!
Mum does tend to have a telepathic nature and so I will be making her do the lottery soon.
I definitely treat this blog like my diary and this post has taken me extra long to write. One being that I didn’t know how to balance the negative with the positive, I didn’t know how to approach this world-wind subject and to be honest it’s been such a long draining but also fast and an amazing learning process? How could all these two end of the spectrum emotions coexist. But it’s happened.
I’ve been applying since May this year, everyday every half hour checking jobs and checking emails. I swear I had carpal tunnel syndrome! It was agonising the long drawn out waiting for recognition. My summer has been full of lovely distraction but I’ve met some dark times for sure.
Graduation was a lovely time but after receiving my degree I just felt lost and doubted the entire experience. September I’m in a job! For most it takes years with the amount of competition there is and I don’t doubt I will have to face testing times again but it’s how you learn and absorb and deal with it that has made me realise what getting older is all about.
Good things come to those who wait, and patience really is a virtue!
I credit my ability to draw silver linings during everything.
No job – well at least I am even being considered and that I’m so so close to the final result.
Coast – maybe this is the push I need! At least I have my amazing family to help me.
Missy – it was her time and at least she is not in pain!
Your going to doubt the path sometimes but always take a step back when you’ve hit a bump, don’t make drastic decision or moves. Breathe, and take baby steps! Facing things head on like a bull in a china shop will lead to mistakes and more heart ache. Be the turtle not the hare! And the light at the end will always find you.