Let’s start from the beginning of my personal journey.
A levels, that’s where my love of buddhism developed. I learnt the life and the teachings of the Buddha and I became hooked on what I considered the perfect philosophy. I always wondered how to bring buddhism into my life, but you get caught up in things and become busy, you forget and move on.
My first year of university was a huge stress ride and I became very upset and felt very lonely a lot of the time. I lost a lot of meaningless friendships. Which made me feel empty, realising I was completely at a loss with people that didnt have much of grip anyway.
I felt completely lost and helpless. With perseverance, (and a lack of options anyways,) I stuck out the year and waited for the 2nd year to kick things up. They did and my soul friends, partner and family can see how well I am doing and how enthusiastic I am about things now.
Through the tough journey the people that cared and gave me love and support made me feel whole again. They gave me essence to my life.
My personality is a firey nature. Which can be good but quite self destructive. My family on both sides have terrible tempers and bipolar tendancies. My nan unfortunately passed away with cancer at such a young age during my A levels. We all knew how much of a stressed person she could be. Perhaps that was one of the things that killed her.
Buddhism has fluttered my mind through these time gaps since finishing school. To do it or not to do? How and what do I need to do to become part of it? Fleeting thoughts that occurred.
As of recently, with wider knowledge to my desired perspective, I am in fact following the practise. To help give my self understanding and perspective on how to live my life as balanced and as mindful as possible.
Life is chaos and to have your life achieving balance is a perfect outlook to have. Since following the practise I have been so much more calmer, wanting to achieve a better health. (As I have health issues when put into a stressful environment.) To have a better mind and respective nature.
I feel more positive things are circuling around me with the more positive outcomes I put into my life. Times can be hard but now I have a path to follow I will be able to gain more perspective about things.
My mother bought a happiness book by the wonderful and so relatable lady, Miss Cotton. It’s great and her little captions help set out a plan for me to talk about certain topics for each day.
“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” – The Buddha