No flowers with out rain

“Smooth seas never make a good sailor”

I’ve felt a lot, a lot of lows and a lot of highs. My horoscope and palm reads have indicated that my life has no middle ground. My life moves from one extreme to the other. That’s how my life has been, with any situation, with people, family and within myself. My emotions and thought process flys on and off the radar.

Today, I felt balanced. I don’t know what come over me but I left the place where I had spent the day and realised nothing crossed my mind. It was just me, my partner and I, sitting, chatting and laughing. Family visits and warm glows within us. How happy we are and noticing the love we have and the love our family has for us.

Im just so lucky. I’m just so lucky, and at times I feel out of luck. But I am not, you always want what you can’t get, you always compare, taken each day at a time is hard but you can get there. Calculating my day and my thought process and putting a positive spin on everything.

I’ve noticed my negative thoughts have turned positive and realising I blow things way up.

I’m getting good and I’m feeling good. I’m helping myself to become more balanced despite my fate line, but I couldn’t of done it without the support my loved ones give me, everyday.

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How mindfulness gave more essence to my life.

Let’s start from the beginning of my personal journey. 

A levels, that’s where my love of buddhism developed. I learnt the life and the teachings of the Buddha and I became hooked on what I considered the perfect philosophy. I always wondered how to bring buddhism into my life, but you get caught up in things and become busy, you forget and move on. 

My first year of university was a huge stress ride and I became very upset and felt very lonely a lot of the time. I lost a lot of meaningless friendships. Which made me feel empty, realising I was completely at a loss with people that didnt have much of grip anyway.

I felt completely lost and helpless. With perseverance, (and a lack of options anyways,) I stuck out the year and waited for the 2nd year to kick things up. They did and my soul friends, partner and family can see how well I am doing and how enthusiastic I am about things now. 

Through the tough journey the people that cared and gave me love and support made me feel whole again. They gave me essence to my life. 

My personality is a firey nature. Which can be good but quite self destructive. My family on both sides have terrible tempers and bipolar tendancies. My nan unfortunately passed away with cancer at such a young age during my A levels. We all knew how much of a stressed person she could be. Perhaps that was one of the things that killed her. 

Buddhism has fluttered my mind through these time gaps since finishing school. To do it or not to do? How and what do I need to do to become part of it? Fleeting thoughts that occurred. 

As of recently, with wider knowledge to my desired perspective, I am in fact following the practise. To help give my self understanding and perspective on how to live my life as balanced and as mindful as possible. 

Life is chaos and to have your life achieving balance is a perfect outlook to have. Since following the practise I have been so much more calmer, wanting to achieve a better health. (As I have health issues when put into a stressful environment.) To have a better mind and respective nature. 

I feel more positive things are circuling around me with the more positive outcomes I put into my life. Times can be hard but now I have a path to follow I will be able to gain more perspective about things. 

My mother bought a happiness book by the wonderful and so relatable lady, Miss Cotton. It’s great and her little captions help set out a plan for me to talk about certain topics for each day. 

“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” – The Buddha

What I think about the Revamped Unicorn Cosmetic brushes

Of a rating from 1 to 10 on quality, it’s a 10. On a rating of 1 to 10 for applying it’s a 10. So soft and leave no streak marks im sold. These brushes blend so easily! This professional brush kit is extremely luxurious, in just the packaging itself. The only brush I dislike is the eyebrow sculpting brush. It does not apply my product on the way I would like compare to my other eyebrow brush shapers. 

There is peice of paper on top of the diamond case that comes with instructions from left to right on how the brushes work. So in that case for people who are unfamiliar with certain brushes you would have to remember what the brushes are for each time you use them, these brushes are pretty self explanatory if your a makeup lover. For first timers, perhaps technique brushes with labels on the handle of what certain brushes are would be better, to get used to the shape and angle of brushes. 

Picture ready? 

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My 2017 timeline

Well it was a tough start to the year in terms of dreams and goals. Me and my partner struggled to settled down in our roles of university and apprenticeship. 

We hated where we were and couldn’t see a positive end. Both worrying and teary nights, motivating ourselves to keep going and hoping things got better. 

They did! Things got better as they do, I found my interests and my ideal goals for where I want to be and for when I get out of university. My partner settled into the work place and is flying through his job! 

We had our first holiday together in Spain and this is where I become serious about fashion blogging and found workplacement with a number one global online magazine, as a style blogger. 

I discovered my strengths from journalism and what I enjoyed, thus being editing and wanting to go into video production. I found out that my goal was to progress into creative director in both documentaries (on the environment) and in fashion magazines. 

I lost a lot of friends through out the year. Randomly not speaking not seeing eachother for months, distancing because life moves on or the simple fact that people are rude. That’s fine because you realise your so much better off. 

I got upset and chased after people but realising who was there all along, made me feel like a brand new person. 

The people who have always been there and always supported me through all my achievements have been my loved ones! 

I am so greatful for a happy and healthy family and that this year we were all safe. That’s all I wish for in the new year. 

My resolutions are

To be more calm 

To loose a stone and to fit into a definite size 8.  

To find great work experience and to pass with a good grade in my second year. 

To pronounce my T’ s properly for broadcast. This seriously going to be the hardest one!!!

Here are my favourite moments

Work I produced this year

My holidays with my amazing partner!

Coldplay concert!

My best gals

MY 20TH!

Lost some work pals this year but gained a bunch load which is great because it started to get lonely when people started to leave.

I’m ending the new year on a high note and I am feeling very content. I’m happy and lucky and healthy that’s all a girl can ask for and the same for my loved ones❤ Roll on 2018 and bring on Thailand with my man❤ AHHH elephants❤ 

HAPPY NEW YEAR💋

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REAL lips for the countdown kiss!

It’s new years eve eve and what better blog post to do than a quick review and tutorial on the REAL Technique limmited edition lip kit, ready for your 12pm kiss!

I got this pretty kit for my birthday, the handy case tube is something on its own. It has a little mirror at the end of the case for on the move touch ups, so if your struggling to get to the girls bathroom, as new years is crazy, you’ll have no struggles!

The kit comes with four brushes, to help you line, texturise, colour and exfoliate/plump your lips. The kit was made from the creators, Sam and Nic, who are infact sisters. Well thanks Sam and Nic because your my lip savour. For ages I was using sharp ends to exfoliate and plump my lips but now I have these beauties. 

To check out how they worked for me follow my pics below: 

My lips before I used the flat smoothing brush

When using this smoothing brush, its best to use vaseline or anything oily on the lips to help glide the brush. The hairs on the brush are quiet tough and would hurt very much on dry lips. 

A Few minutes later…

Then the lip brush to colour in my Ted Baker nude créme lipstick.

Next is the liner to perfect the outline of my lips.

And then to wipe away over lineing and to shadow the cupids bow with highlight.

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This is how my lips looked after…

My overall view is beyond positive. I have received the gift of all gifts for my lips. Winter can be harsh so always take care of your pout and make sure to exfoliate the dead and dry skin with lots of Vaseline. The flat smooth brush is my favourite by far as it’s replaced anything pointy in my room to compensate as a tool for massaging my lips. The brushes are smooth and they glide lovely onto the lips! A perfect gift for the perfect kiss. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE AND ALL MY FANTASTIC FOLLOWERS. Thanks for reading this year and keep me posted on your own posts👍

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Power in style 

I don’t know if it’s because I have been binge watching That 70’s show or my hobby of scrolling through Instagram, subconsciously finding styles from the 70’s, but I became aware of my interest after unknowingly piecing this outfit together and figuring out that, yes, perhaps I have become a little obsessed with the 70’s inspired look. Also, the Fashion blogger, Lucy Williams’s wardrobe definitely plays a part in my copy cat style. 
My sweet partner bought me this very cute Power T. I love the yellow print and bold typography. It makes for a plain white T and to which is very colloquial to the 70’s.

My love for the fur coat is real and it has been a long time coming. Where have they been? It’s been a while for its come back and so I guess it’s bye-bye to my last year’s trench coat and hello to my furry friend. Let’s be clear this is fake fur! This coat goes well with high end styles (obviously because its known for being luxurious) and the relaxed look. Heck, chuck on a pair of Adidas originals and call me a pro.

Last but for sure not least, my burgundy patent stretch sock boots. They go with just about everything and I love them hidden underneath a good pair of three quarter length mom jeans. I’m on the hunt for a more flared three quarter length trousers. Preferably black and not mom jeans so if you have any suggestions please feel free to comment. 

The accessories I would wear would be cat sunglasses for a cold sunny day. To keep that chic look. Perhaps a nice vintage ring. Keep it simple, the outfit is already a statement.

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To shop my look: 

Coat – boohoo– out of stock (they do very affordable faux fur coats) 

Power top – Nastygal 

Mom jeans – Nastygal 

Patent boots – Misspap 

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Lucky for you they are all in sale!

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NASTY GAL IS SO KIND

…She is, She hooked me up with my honey top of course. The struggles of finding a good quality T, oversized with simple writing on the front that isn’t childish, has proven to be a massive hunt. 

T’ s like these are fashion staples at the moment! Everyone has them for casual days up to nights out with the gals. But be prepared for drunken strangers to call you Honey and “Is your name honey.”

I wore my favourite leather skirt from Missguided.

You can wear them casually with a great pair of 70’s jeans, flared out the bottom with sock boots. I would love to own a pair one day and perhaps corduroy trousers too! 

Got to love the leather jacket on the last picture outfit!😍

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When in Rome

When in Rome, well being able to say the famous phrase in the actual destination of love was an experience. Let alone the beautiful sites and the food… oh my goodness the food. 

Our favourite area to go for food every evening was around the Trevi fountain. A couple of times we migrated the opposite direction to have food right outside the Pantheon. I admit to having two main courses and a big bottle of rosé to myself. Their courses are strange by the way, there is like starters, first and second, then mains and desert? So of course I had to dive into the experience. 

This city break was one of my favourites, I just can’t describe the closeness the city brings to you and your partner. We felt like we connected more? We had a great time being with eachother and it’s been months since we left and we always drop hints about going back. An incredible place to be.

The fascination has always made me curious, but my desire to paint the way people live has stayed with me for as long as I can remember. Perhaps it’s because I live in such a modern house and the only time I hike so many stairs or take lifts (rarely) is if I’m in a hotel. But these civilians live this life and it tickles my interest. The weathered paint for starters. Why is everything the same yellow, mustard and orange colour? Why do some of the buildings look unkept? And why do I prefer it. My father always tries to keep our house immaculate, outside and in. So to see things like this creates a sense of character and any mark is left undisturbed. I like the texture it creates with the real brick and emulsion paint. It gives my hands this urge to find a book and just immetate immediately. This is people’s door. And upstairs are lives shared in the same space. Everything in Rome has a connection, and you certainly felt it in many ways. 

Taking pictures for my fashion blog turned out to be a bust. I mean I was so on the ball on my last holiday but Rome just swallowed me up and I ran out of time. I was very annoyed as it was on the top of my to do list because how can you miss a great opportunity for beautiful back drops? Well I did for sure, especially in the Vatican. What an overwhelming experience that was. 

The art and tapestries in the Vatican were extremely impressive and the fact there was so many to look at made my eyes gaze down the heavy hall way of art. But so pretty with every fine detail I couldn’t comprehend. The start of this trip turned out so bizar. We exit out of the taxi and an english speaking man is talking to us right away. We didn’t exclude him as a pestering seller so we listened? The angels came down on us because all of a sudden he was taking us through the crowds and passing the four mile long que. Skipped all the ques inside…yes we are inside now, and then we get an english tour guide going through the Vatican. Both me and my partner look at eachother in amazement and laughter because we don’t know how we done it. Mentally preparing ourselves for the que all morning and during the taxi ride. Then we enter the Sistine Chapel that many tour guides said was closed. But somehow it reopened and we were in!!!!!!!

 It didn’t stop here.

Borghese museums – couldn’t go in after making the trip down there, because we needed to pre book. An italian lady heard our situation and handed us two free tickets because three people didn’t turn up to her group tour… 

Oh yeah!

An experience of a lifetime. 

OOTD!!

Outfit of the day guys! And they’re all in the sale!!!!!! From Wallis, Mango and Oasis.

Oversize shimmering floral dress from Mango, just £10! And my Wallis bag for £10 as well.

The cream small heel Oasis sandals, just £15 in the sale. 

I can’t wait to wear this beautiful dress multiple times. Such an incredible peice. Here is how I can wear it…

I could wear a black belt or this thin gold chain which is very slim and classy to hug your waist. This will give the dress a bit more shape. 

I love an outfit you can dress up and down. 

5 years with my man! 

Five years since me and my man got together. We were the same age as my nan and bamps when they got together, 14 years old! 

It doesn’t seem like we were that young. It doesn’t seem we have been together that long!? But it’s probably, most definantly because, we have had the best time! And we are gunna have the many more best times… 

Take a look at my video guys just to see what we have got up too so far and what is to come;)

Of course I got gifts as well people! I mean I was expecting flowers, that’s a must, but he spoilt me rotten with MICHEAL FREAKING KORS bracelet and watch!!!!!! 

So expect to be seeing these bad boys in my fashion posts;) 

P.s sorry I haven’t been posting a lot since my holiday. I found a writing job so it’s been crazy trying to settle in but it’s amazing and I’m so happy and especially happy I have my number one fan beside me all the way!